When I was struggling to carry 10+ kgs of school bag to study as much as I can in a small local school that did not had even proper toilets and drinking water amenities during my schooling days,
a few people never cared to at least appreciate me for being my batch's school topper with 85.66% despite the 'chettu kinda chaduvulu'.
2. When I was burning gallons of mid night oil to balance the 2 boats' journey of intermediate and eamcet in securing 95.3% and 6160 rank despite the arduous bus journey in the 1st year and daily cycling marathon in the 2nd year, a few people never cared to appreciate a lean chap who toiled through such tough times.
( To catch that already fully occupied bus in the Allwyn colony bus stop only to do foot boarding, I had to walk 2 kms every day in the morning and another 2 kms in the evening to return home to and fro the bus stop. Have asked my parents to buy me a cycle to get rid off the cumbersome everyday struggle, and the 2nd year's bsa slr cycle journey was another big herculean task of a tiresome cycle ride of 3.5+3.5=7 kms every day via a mud road that didn't had even proper concrete laid and not to talk about the rainy season's woes to ride a cycle in a downpour wearing a simple plastic sheet as a raincoat..!)
3. When I was in a completely chaotic and stressful state of acute health issues amidst painful rural bus journey (pallayvelugu bus travel from IDPL colony to Narsapur / Vishnupur) for an almost (45+45=90) kms every day to put in the best possible efforts in securing 80.99%, a few people did not bother to appreciate me for being a graduate with distinction.
Ask my 2004-08 batch ECE BVRITians on how much of annam+pappu was my everyday meal in a small oval shaped steel lunch box.
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An 18 to 21 year old engineering student lives on a small tiffin box from 7 am to 7 pm for 4 years with almost nothing else to eat in between because of the acute financial crisis at home that has mandated only a 500 rupees' monthly budget from which 360 rupees goes to the rural monthly route bus pass and the balance of 140 rupees for all the other engineering studies' needs and auto charges during internal exams..!
Several times I used to walk all the way from IDPL colony bus stop to my house, when 30 numbered RTC buses didn't turn up even after waiting for an hour coupled with no biker giving a lift even after trying a lot because my 140 rupees' budget got exhausted for that month.
On a few days when my mother wasn't doing well with her health issues, God knows the pain of my hunger with no tiffin box available for that day...
She used to ask me to buy and eat something from the college's cafeteria, being unaware of the fact that the 140 rupees' pocket money is already exhausted for the month..! I could neither bother them for more pocket money nor could live with an empty stomach until evening..
Sometimes I used to cry bitterly sitting near by the Saraswatee Mandir in my college lawn asking her as to why should a good student like me suffer in such a way as if the already existing hardships aren't enough to bring me down mentally.
Ask my bench friend P.Sandeep and my rtc bus friends K.Vinay, U.Chaitanya, B.Rajesh, etc... on how I used to hide all my hardships behind a forceful false smile to move ahead without losing my determination.
)
But for the nutritious Prasaadam served in big leaves in the BVRIT's Vinaayaka Temple (which used to be almost like a sumptuous breakfast for me) and a few puffs / snacks sometimes bought by Chaitu in the Chintal Iyyengar bakery after the tiresome evening journey), God knows what would have been my health by the end of my engineering studies....
It is only after I got free sodexo coupons in CA technologies, that I have started eating belly full and put on some decent weight.
Check out my before and after 2010 pics to see the clear difference between a person who gets a decent meal and one who starves regularly )
4. When I have struggled in multiple ways to secure 3 campus placements (TCS, Accenture, CA Technologies) and started balancing my corporate career journey in CA (from-Jun-2008) amidst various hectic non-sense and issues at home, a few people never bothered to at least appreciate me for being the sole bread winner for my family.
5. When I took a personal loan with 14% of high interest rate to fulfil my dream of a decent 2BHK own house to have a peaceful life ahead, a few have vented out their ire by being unable to withstand my personal growth by spoiling the house in multiple ways for whatsoever stupid reasons and have been bothering me heavily since 2016.
( If they are acting innocently as if they did not do anything after all the torture they kept me and my family members all these days for whatsoever arrogance and stupidity by forming a cunning conglomerate with an arrogant corporate chain smoker bastard, then I too can act equally innocently as if they are unknown strangers to me)
6. When I was set out on a complex expedition to tackle a few cunning and crooked corporate bastards who were unable to digest my well-being / name / growth, a few folks have fabricated umpteen hurdles and blockages to make me fail in the expedition out of their stupidity and arrogance ( inclusive of the above bastard who spoiled my house ) But I have always been a focused and determined person to ignore all the false people surrounding me and only listened to my conscience and a few good hearted well wishers and friends who stood by me in this arduous journey up until today.
8. Anyways, all I have to say is that I
have struggled and suffered a lot in silence all these years and I very well know who my genuine well wishers and who pretend to be..
A 35 year old man knows the world around, its people and all sorts of their crooked politics vested with personal vendetta...
అందరి మంచిని కోరి బ్రతికే నన్ను నానా విధాల సాధించారు....
అందరిలా ఒక సామాన్య సంతోషకరమైన జీవితం కోసం ప్రయత్నించిన నన్ను పాగల్ గాడు అని అభియోగం మోపి అవమానించారు...
మంచి మనోసంకల్పానికి భవగవంతుడు ఎల్లప్పుడు తోడూంటాడు అనేలా ఇప్పుడు కేవలం సద్గురువానుగ్రహం / ఈశ్వరానుగ్రహం తో ఉన్నతమైన స్థితికి వచ్చే నన్ను చూసి లోపల కుళ్ళుకుంటూ బయట నంగనాచి అమాయకులలా నటించే వారిని గుర్తించలేనంత వెర్రివాడినని అనుకోవడం కొందరి వెర్రి....
ఇన్నాళ్ళు నన్ను, నా కుటుంబ సభ్యులను హింసించి ఇప్పుడు సిగ్గు శరం లేకుండా వివిధ క్రయ విక్రయాల్లో అనవసరంగా దూరి నా సొమ్మే పందికొక్కుల్లా మెక్కాలని చూస్తే నేను ససేమిరా సహించను....
నా అరోగ్యం పట్ల శ్రద్ధవహించేవారెవరో నాకు తెలుసు...
నా మంచి కోరుకునేవారెవరో నాకు బహుబాగా తెలుసు....
నా శ్రేయోభిలాషులు మినహా మిగతా ఎవ్వరికీ కూడా నా క్రయవిక్రయల్లో కలగజేసుకుని మధ్యలో అనవసరంగా దూరవలసిన అవసరం లేదు...
(కొన్ని సార్లు పేర్లు పెట్టి తిట్టాలంటే కూడా ఒక ఇబ్బంది....
మన టీవీలో అల్లరి ఎక్కువతే...
బయటవారి చేతిలో రిమోట్ ఉంటే...
తిట్టాల్సింది మన టీవీనా... బయటి రిమోట్నా....
లేక రెంటినా....అనేది అర్ధం కాని విషయం... )
ఎవరు నా నూతన జీవితంలోకి కోలాట బృందాన్ని పంపించి ఆనందాన్ని తీసుకువచ్చారో.....
ఎవరు కొట్లాటలను తీసుకొచ్చి బాధించారో....
నన్ను ముంచే వారెవరో.... నా మంచి కోరి నన్ను ఉద్ధరించేవారెవరో తెలియనంత / తెలుసుకోలేనంత వెర్రివాడినైతే కాదు....
మీ అనవసరమైన అహంకారపూరిత బంధుత్వం పేరుతో మా జీవితాల్లోకి జొరబడి నా కుటుంబసభ్యులకు లేనిపోనివి నూరిపోసి నా కుటుంబసభ్యులు నాకే ఎదురు మాట్లాడేలా గావించేవారెవ్వరైనా సరే నేను వారిని ఓర్వను...
ఎన్ని రోజులు మీరు అమాయకులలా నటిస్తూనే ఉంటారో....
నేను కూడా అన్నిటిని అందర్నీ అంతే అమాయకంగా అబ్సర్వ్ చేస్తూనే ఉంటాను....
ఒక కొడుకు గా....
ఒక అన్న గా....
ఒక భర్త గా...
ఒక తండ్రి గా...
ఒక అల్లుడు గా....
నిర్వర్తించవలసిన నా కర్తవ్యాలేంటో..
మందిని ముంచి బ్రతికే వారి దెగ్గర తెలుసుకోవలసిన స్థితిలో నేను లేను...
కాబట్టి నాకు నీతులు చెప్పడం మానుకొని,
ఎప్పుడూ ఇతరుల ఉన్నతిపై ఏడుస్తూ బ్రతికే సంత నీతిగా బ్రతకడం నేర్చుకొని నాకు దూరంగా ఉండండి....
I have been following / and I carefully follow the below quote thoroughly....
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